Help me, I've fallen and I can't get up!

The last couple of days/week have been rough. My body hasn’t been too cooperative with this whole “pregnancy” thing…the nausea increased and my food aversion as well…which isn’t a great combination when the only thing that keeps the nausea down is EATING! Its amazing how something I was craving a few days prior, makes me sick at the very sight just that quickly… I’ve never felt more “out of control” of my body or anything that’s happening! The good part is, I know what the cause is and the end (2nd Trimester) is in sight…the bad news, I don’t feel the baby or even have a picture and so I’m left to feel that all of this is just a big sick practical joke on me…hey, the last ultrasound looked like a mass of mush with a little flutter that they told me was a heartbeat…my mind has since decided that what I’m really carrying is a cross between the loch ness monster, the yeti and the chupacabra!: P

Anyway, to top it all off my right hip has been going out of place. My chiropractor says that’s normal but usually later in the pregnancy. With my car accident last summer, my back is doing well but is still prone to flare ups…ie: baby’s expanding in all directions – it no likey! So walking has been fun…walk, almost fall, try to walk again, ouch… Last night was the worst! It went out completely, it hurt so bad and I couldn’t walk. Ricky had to carry me to the bathroom and I was a miserable sobbing mess… Finally I called my parents in the middle of the night to see if my mom had an idea of how to get the damn thing back in?! Thankfully my dad was coherent and calm…he said that when it happened to my mom, it would eventually “pop back in”…then he prayed for me and I finally fell asleep. By my early morning bathroom trip it was “in” enough to walk to the bathroom! It was still sore but I limped around and headed for work.

No matter how my body was feeling, I was so excited for today! It was “ultrasound” day plus the consult with the perinatal doc (high risk doctor) to find out if the baby was developing correctly (and not one of the monsters I had created in my head)! Ricky was thrilled too. I called ahead to see if I should drink gallons of water like usual. They said to make sure I was “fully hydrated” so my bladder would fill and after the very first experience (at 5 weeks where they were determining due date) I didn’t want to show up with a half full bladder! The nazi lady running the machine made me drink 2 ice cold water bottles in 5 mins and then was mad when I was shivering uncontrollably while she was trying to get clear pictures!!! *shakes head*

Well I was in so much pain…my poor bladder was screaming, I could barely walk…and then we went to the wrong center lol! Thankfully the right one was just down the street so we weren’t too late. And thankfully they took me within 10 mins! They were concerned that they wouldn’t be able to get a full examine done since I am a few days short of the 3 month mark so I was praying that the baby was big enough... I couldn’t take this bladder torture again in a few days! Once in there the nurse (who was so sweet and funny) told me that my bladder was TOO full and to go pee! *cue hallelujah chorus* I ran to the bathroom! Back on the table I still felt like I had more and she said my bladder was starting to fill already lol…guess I wasn’t as dehydrated as I thought?!

Finally the moment came...I was nervous to look...but there it was, my baby, our baby…moving around, flailing it’s little arms, trying to grab it’s feet apparently already on the move…and apparently not happy to be disturbed with pushing and prodding! It was incredible… It had a head and arms and feet and looked like a tiny little person… The tech kept trying to get a good picture of the umbilical cord (part of what they check on in development) but the baby wouldn’t stop grooving lol! Finally she got the measurements and it was big enough to get all the information we needed!:) They sent us back out to wait to have the consult with the doctor. They weighed me – I am proud to announce I am now 102 lbs! And took my vital signs which were low as always…who knows maybe my low blood pressure and Ricky’s high blood pressure will come out as “normal blood pressure” in the baby?!

The doctor was an absolute sweetheart! She went through our medical history and over the concerns that they initially had for the baby with my gluten intolerance. Long story short she said she was VERY happy with the baby’s development and it’s even a little ahead of schedule in the growth department (God help me!) So the due date stands at November 22, 2010, but she said it could come up to 3 weeks earlier then that since it may get big fast! Turkey baby here we come...if I had any say in the matter, I’d vote for a mid-Nov delivery so I am able to eat Thanksgiving dinner comfortable lol! But babies come when they come…either way I can’t wait to meet my little caramel latte!

Only 8 more weeks (June 30th appointment) and we get to find out what we’re having! It’ll be nice to actually call it by its name finally and not tadpole, squirrel, Zazarella and any other myriad of names it’s been called lol:)